i watch you hate me as i love myself more. :)
THANK GOD FOR THAT TALENT. :<3 

L.I.F.E.

ohhhkaay~ so its been a while since i poured out my emotions smashing my keyboard and torturing THOUSANDS of my followers ^_~ reading it. hahaha.

probably because..uhm. i’ve been thinking….and looking past through everything i used to. we’ll he’s this guy, and yeah of course i fell for him and a perfectly awful time, and whattayah know, Hello floor- as usual :) come to think of it, the floor and I had developed quite a relationship after nth times of ending up down there. haha

i’ve given up. not on life- but on life and how i used to see it. 

well wahttayah know……too lazy to think after barely 3 min….

….to be continued. :)

…..what was i thinking…..

^answer: what (WHO) else. YOU toinks

saw you from somewhere one time then said Oh. wow.  saw you again and again—-until dannng….thought i’d be awfully psyched if i get to meet him. knowing it won’t even be possible. odds was in my favor(HungerGames :) ) we did meet. the world slowed down the moment i was you walking towards us LOL.ing @ myself, but seriously i really thought it did :) got to talk and no doubt- as easily as i fall- I did.  but sad to say it was too late for me to realize you weren’t there to break my fall :) HELLO FLOOR. 

You made me do stuff i’d never thought doing just for you to notice me, CRAP- ended up being a fool. not only did i regret what i did ( NOT THAT ITS SOMETHING TO BE ASHAMED OF MIND YOU) but now i wonder what was i thinking? Whoa, Did i just did that?!

going the extra mile, being extra sweet, thoughtful and even acting like i couldn’t care more. and why? all this hoping that you’ll like me back. Pathetic and arrogant i might say, no not referring to you but yeaaaah~ THAT’S ME. so caught up with what i was thinking about what COULD Happen with US, something sweet something real something drastic lol that at one time all i could ever think about was learning how to be someone you’ll miss and cherish. EPIC FAIL.

how can someone like me < (NOT THAT IM SOMEONE- REALLY) = but i know i’m someone worth loving, someone ought to be cared for, damned to be loved by someone damned if he didn’t, desperate to be at least considered (downside i know) > try so hard, work my ass of trying to be special to someone who doesn’t even remember me at times, someone who barely has the thought of seeing me again, the one special guy that doesn’t even seem to care- but with all this, i kept on praying and asking and hoping—— maybe this time, it’ll be different.

unfortunately fortunate IT WASN’T DIFFERENT. :)

like i said, i fall hard- i fall easily- and i fall deep. BAD I KNOW. but i guess with every fall, every break and every ache- i learned something more, i gained something becoming that i know i wouldn’t get any other way.

just SUCKS to say that if HE (the ONE) ever finds his way into my life, i dont get to say….Well, babe you’re the first one to make me fall in love.hard.                       :( sad. but at least i get to say….

 but YOU will EVER be MY LAST. :)

if butterflies were priceless,

id be a millionaire for selling them,

you easily breed them in my stomach.

BUT THOSE ARE THE KINDS THAT ILL NEVER SELL.

*pointless to you——speakin my heartout. :)

Make Believe or Reality

Feels so good to be LOVED. :?

No Options BUT Tears.

well… its not like this everyday, cause i honestly try to be well off almost all the time. but people do have their breaking points. and i believe ive been in almost a million of them by now. I AM JUST SO SICK AND TIRED of going through the cycle. I just can’t take it in when i can see there’s nothing else i can do but breakdown and cry. TEARS are too damn precious i believe and i ain’t WASTING a single one, but yes, i am swimming in my tears. You try your best not to hurt people you love but it seems like they don’t even bother caring, sucks i know. guess there’s always been this part in my entire life that Constantly Sucks. :( I’ve Tried my best dealing with it face to face and try to fight it off, didn’t go well. Then i tried to just leave it and simply live my life; what happened?! it came running after me with a thousand knives ready to stab my back; felt some in already. Now tell me what i am supposed to do? when i believe i’ve done everything on my part to be at least appreciated even the least acknowledged as someone’s somebody that at least exists. I am indeed running out of places to hide my feelings, been over flowing with pain and devastating memory; all i could do is reminisce the very few good times that can somehow make me smile, but then knock me right off my feet again, reminding me it won’t ever happen again, the only reason you’re smiling cause you’re making up stories you would want to happen. Again. YOU MADE IT ALL UP.

i guess what im trying to say is. Im Just to Damn Frightened Thinking about being left behind by people i do love the most. It scares me to death- But i wonder why i’m still breathing. :( 

Anonymous asked: Have you ever given your heart to somebody? Either secretly or openly.

YES. the problem is They Left me Hanging, either secretly or openly. sucks i know, well qoute Shit Happens end qoute.

so if ever you’re planning to give your heart to someone, MAKE SURE HE’LL ACCEPT IT. a lot of time it might get broken but choose a guy who’ll give it back the way you gave it to HIM. :)

YOU’D KNOW IF HE WILL. ;)

Anonymous asked: What is your ideal age for marriage?

20 and the thought of settling down havnt touched even the smallest neutron of whatever is inside this head of mine.  

buuuuut in legal terms, well if your country says its ok to get married at 15, go and be merry- no one can question that. But at timse when the Heart, the Mind and the Soul gets in the matter, there’s a lot more laws  to be followed and sometimes even bent.

if you’re in confusion of whether to Get married NOW to whoever your prince charming is. well you could ask yourself AM I READY!?

ready not only for the legality of the so called marrige but for everything that comes with the paper. 

The responsibilities, the burden, the pain, the misunderstandings, things as such and for LOVE.

might not be the usual happy and satisfiying Love you’ve been feeling eversince you’ve been with this guy/girl but THAT Love with alot more factors within your daily life Together as a couple as a part of the other.  will take forever to explain this, just keep in mind (in your heart, your soul and wherever you can keep it for as long as you can remember this) AM I READY TO LOVE ME LOVING THIS PERSON I VOWED TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH?! if you are a certain yes, then please invite me to your wedding owkei!?

~Hate me but i am loving this. :))) thank you.